The One About The One.

Over the past few weeks I have been a bit frustrated.  I have met someone that seems to get better over time.  Which is a good thing right?  I think so.  Its kindof a scary thing, dating as a divorced mother of 3.  I am not the type to close myself off to people even after being hurt.  Sometimes my affection levels just bubble over.  Regardless I am finding myself becoming attached to this man.  Everyone has advice when it comes to dating and how fast/slow to go.  Ultimately only I know what is right for me.  But what if I am at a loss?  

Those that are close to me know that I am open about my love and affections.  People that I love I tell them.  If I miss you I tell you.  You get the picture.  My kids hear it 100+ times a day.  They get what we call loves, hugs and kisses, even more.  I don't want them to ever wonder.  

So when it comes to me and my heart I get frustrated.  Everyone loves in their own way and in their own time.  I am good being patient as long as I know where someone is at and where they think things could end up.  I don't like guessing games.  

So now I find myself dating a man that has everything I have on my list.  That sounds terrible that I have a list.  Regardless he has it all.  And the more I interact with him and the more I get to know his children and see him in different environments I just like him more.  Stupid boy!  Lol.  

Learning how people express their love is always a learning curve too.  I read a book called "The Five Love Languages" years ago and it helped me understand how I express mine and helped me recognize how others do.  It was a great read and think everyone should read it.

I'm loving the time I get to spend with him.  I like having my own time and space too.  If it is right it will happen when it needs to.  I just hate limbo.